July 4, 2012
I don’t even know how to begin this blog post. I write with a heavy heart.
I know God doesn’t give us more than we can handle, and I know that when we hurt, He hurts.
I know that trusting Him is having faith. I know that SAYING that is eaiser said than done.
I know God sometimes gives us incredible journeys, and we can do great things THROUGH HIM if we just trust HIM.
Wouldn’t it be nice if all the journeys were fun? Yet, we all know that Jesus’ own journey was one of torture to save all human life.
When I think of Trey Erwin and his family, I feel so many things: uplifted by their courage, inspired by their faith, scared by their journey, and saddened at T’s prognosis.
There are many things in life I just don’t understand. I know this is probably God’s intent. This is why having FAITH is important.
Right now I trust in God’s goodness. I know He hurts when we hurt. I know He hurts now.
At the end of this post is the excerpt from the latest caringbridge journal of Trey’s journey. Attached is a photo I was asked to take at the CHS Trey Pep Rally in April 2012. In this photo, Mayor Stan Joyner is announcing July 31 as Trey Erwin Day. PLEASE join me in praying for Trey, Collin, and their parents as they go through this journey. “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Phil 4:13
It’s hard to believe their journey started in February 2012. I hold fast to Jeremiah 29:11-13. I firmly believe God knows the plans He has for us.
I love you and am praying for you Erwin Family!
Blessings and Peace,
How Do They Do It?
Written 10 hours ago
I have news to share that I thought would be coming to you much later than today. We met with the doctors yesterday. They read the scan from Florida and confirmed the cancer has spread to the areas mentioned in the report. As of now, our goal, Trey’s goal, and the goal of all of the doctors is for Trey to make it to his birthday – Trey Erwin Day – July 31, when he will turn 16.
Medically, we have many things we are dealing with that have to be handled on an immediate basis. The first being the retention of his fluid. Even though they have started him on lasix and other meds, it has not started to work fully (as it takes time to kick in). During this time, he gains more weight and fluid. We are hoping we will have another solution for this by the end of the week. Trust me, I am all over this because of his pain.
Dr. Tauer came to see us today and helped us make many decisions. Trey’s first goal is to get home which Dr. Tauer and Dr. Sara feel is very important. As was discussed today, if at any time we feel Trey needs to come back to St. Jude, the doors are wide open. Being at home will make him feel better and he’ll have a chance to get his room organized.
We will be coming home with a hospital bed. We don’t think Trey will be comfy in his bed like HE thinks he will. So as Dr. Tauer suggested, we are going to clean out the dining room and he can just bed hop and get to any place that it is comfy for him. Our first thought was that our two labs are going to love hopping in the hospital bed with Trey!
So many have said that they don’t know how we do it and call us an inspiration. They have called Trey an inspiration. As I walked down the hall tonight with Dr. Tauer’s arm around my shoulder, he told me what a great job we were doing and what a fine son we had raised. I take that as a high compliment from a Christian physician who cares so deeply for his patients. We also have such a special relationship with Dr. Sara Federico. There have been days that I have not known what I would have done without her. I can’t begin to tell you the special measures she goes to for her patients. She loves Trey so. These are two of the many people that have helped us down this difficult road. What has made it so much easier has been not only their caring spirits but the evidence of their own faith. God KNEW, HE KNEW the doctors Trey would need. HE KNEW the support Jay and I would need in a crisis of not understanding the full picture and gave us men and women that trust in Him.
We have always, always trusted in God to guide our every step. He has been faithful in leading us down each path and opening every door for us. God knows our hurts and our fears and yes, we do hurt and I’d be lying if I said we were not afraid. We are His creatures and that’s why He tells us in His word to lean on Him. Jay and I have shed tears and there will be more, MANY more.
This is when we ask for your prayers for all of us. Pray for our precious Collin. His birthday is July 20 and he will turn 13. Trey loves him very much and this will be a hard thing for Collin to experience in the coming month, years.
I have so many more people to thank and if I could name you one by one, I would. Jay and I have a close set of friends that have come to our side and literally been our hands and feet. We love you.
THIS is how we do it – I opened just now my phone to search God’s word to leave you with scripture and THIS is the verse of the day.
“I believe that the present suffering is nothing compared to the coming glory that is going to be revealed to us.” Romans 8:18
PS To read the latest information about Trey and his journey, visit the caringbridge site here: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/treyerwin